I keep telling myself it's just not in my hands
(this seems outta my hand man)
For losing you slowly was just not in my plan
(this wasn't supposed to happen like this)
I look to the sky sometimes, just hoping you're there
(I don't think she's coming back this time)
Hoping you're there (not this time)

'Cause every time I pick up a pen it's all you
And there beside me in my mirror, all I can see is us two
Pages turn so fast like all those pages do
Your words that bleed through
Your words that bleed through

Get back in my arms and just hanging by my side
Losing hold of you has left me dry
Tell me where you run to and where do you hide
Know you've never once left my mind
Tell yourself I'm sorry for these things that I've done Oh tell yourself never seen that love that gone no
Tell yourself it's over now and not to run
Just tell yourself I'm sorry for what I've done

'Cause every time I pick up a pen it's all you
And there beside me in my mirror, all I can see is us two
Pages turn so fast like all those pages do
Your words that bleed through
Your words that bleed through

Listen while I'm talking, I don't do it too much
Can't help feeling that came between us
Whatever happened to the way that it was
One thing I can't have is what I want

Who decided it's gonna end up this way
Who decided that you could not stay
You won't be here by the end of my day
'Cause I can't even listen to words that I say

But every time I pick up a pen it's still you
And there beside me in my mirror, all I can see is us two
Pages turn so fast like all those pages do
Your words that bleed through
Your words that bleed through, ooh, oh

I swear you never really miss it till it's half gone
Then you tighten up your grip trying to hold on
Didn't really appreciate it when it's in your arms
Then you can relate to every word in your song
Like was I wrong, but I know I'm right
But in hindsight, I blame the limelight
Maybe I just needed time to get my mind right
Maybe we'll reconnect when the time's right
I'm trying to think about the causes
Was I too bossy exactly where the fault is
I was told to step in love with some caution
'Cause love and shit is no difference in the darkness
But love is where the heart is
You can see the blood as it's dripping through the gausses
So I guess I fell outta love with a smile
And more love with applause's

And it's quiet in my house, your silence is my home
And everything reminds me that I am all alone
It's quiet where you used to be
And now that you're gone, there's not a sound
There's not a word, but a dial tone
Well it's quiet when I'm drinking
It's quiet when I smoke
It's __ when I'm eating, always I sleep all alone
It's quiet now it's louder than I sit still like a stone
Only from my dreams where you won't go

Every time I pick a pen it's all you
And there beside me in my mirror, all I can see is us two
Pages turn so fast like all those pages do
Your words that bleed through

Don't pick up that pen, no I, all I say
Don't look in the mirror, at all I am
The pages turn, the pages burn
And it's all 'cause of you
It was tears that were soaking these pages,
Words that left me bleeding and pleading

How did I get in this predicament?
Was I influenced by the benefits
'Cause I was hitting on so many chicks
Lovin' you and leavin' you was the only sentiment
But I guess I wasn't ready for ya
'Cause I'm rubbing your feet, cooking spaghetti for ya
Taking you to parks winning teddy's for ya
But in my heart I'm thinking there's someone better for ya
But my hearts like 'no not this again'
Cut it out black, you know how this will end
And I swear I really was listening
But my dick was yelling and my heart was just whispering
So you know who I listened to
Now my hearts bitching 'cause he's missing you
Got my eyes staring at some old flicks of you
When my nose swears that it can still smell the scent of you
And my soul is saying damn she was meant for you (aw oh oh)
And my soul is saying damn she was meant for you
(Losing a part of myself now)
And my soul is saying damn she was meant for you
(And I'm losing myself now)
And my soul is saying damn she was meant for you (aww)

I've been wondering, watching
I've been waiting so long
I've been talking, I've been listening
I've been playing my song
I've been hoping you'd would be leaving
Honestly you're not
I'm not with you
But I miss you..
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